Transform Me

My journey isn't always where I want to go
Sometimes I'm up, sometimes I'm low
Knowing my walk is not alone
I continue to tread to my eternal Home

I go into the dark, seeking the light
Knowing the end is worth the fight
The Home I seek, is filled with love
Not an earthly home, but from above

My journey isn't about success and gold
It's the transformation of my soul
I'm marked by my father as His child
Faith of fire, nothing mild

The Love of Jesus Christ, my King
Keeps me going, I'm impelled to Sing
"Lord, transform me now, day and night
Transform me both in the dark and light

Allow my faith to never stray
To be strong both night and day
Jesus Christ, come live in my heart
Until the day's end, from its start!"

Through Your Eyes

I attended a women's conference today at Mt. Zion and was truly inspired by all the speakers. The keynote speaker was Tracey Tiernan from 95.1 SHINE FM. Her words were my inspiration for this newest poem:

Through Your Eyes

Release me from this sin I hold
Allow me warmth from this cold
Shepherd me where I can see
The image only You have of me

Struggle I do, to feel Your love
Claim I'm not suitable for You above
Lost and lonely, walking away
From the only One that vows never to stray

By my side through my dark walk
Silent I am, but I hear You talk
Stubborn I can be as I turn to run
Opposite You, Your love must be done

But, wrong I am for You never leave
You beckon, You call, You grab hold of me
You are all powerful, mighty and strong
You gently guide me from my wrong

My struggle with sin still remains
But, You Lord, love me anyway
I look through Your eyes and I see
A beautiful, cherished, loved by You, me

Solid Ground

Lord, wrap me up into Your arms
Help me not to feel alarm
Leave me not alone, afraid
Lead me away from the bed I've made

It's been awhile since I was down
On my knees recognizing Your crown
Yet, here you are, still at my side
Curious I become, why You abide

Surely that does not mean I wish You gone
Just confused at Your presence with all I've done
Realizing Your love is who You are
Praising You since this Fall was far

So, since it is I that's walked away
I now humbly ask if I may stay
Knowing your answer is always a Yes
Aware I don't really need to guess

I bow on my knees, kiss Your feet
Praying that Satan can no longer defeat
The faith built on the Rock I've found
Lord, walk beside me on solid ground

Some Inspirational Songs

I just wanted to post a couple of songs since the words of them express how I feel. I find them to be incredibly inspirational. They point out the pain in this world, but the glory and strength that can be found in the Lord. I need that reminder from time to time.

"Bring The Rain"

by Mercy Me

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

There Will Be A Day

by Jeremy Camp

I try to hold on to this world with everything I have
But I feel the weight of what it brings, and the hurt that trys to grab
The many trials that seem to never end, His word declares this truth,
that we will enter in this rest with wonders anew

But I hold on to this hope and the promise that He brings
That there will be a place with no more suffering

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face
But until that day, we’ll hold on to you always

I know the journey seems so long
You feel your walking on your own
But there has never been a step
Where you’ve walked out all alone

Troubled soul don’t lose your heart
Cause joy and peace he brings
And the beauty that’s in store
Outweighs the hurt of life’s sting

I can’t wait until that day where the very one I’ve lived for always will wipe away the sorrow that I’ve faced
To touch the scars that rescued me from a life of shame and misery this is why this is why I sing….

There will be a day with no more tears, no more pain, and no more fears
There will be a day when the burdens of this place, will be no more, we’ll see Jesus face to face

There will be a day, He’ll wipe away the stains, He’ll wipe away the tears, He’ll wipe away the tears…..there will be a day.

Tomorrow

Seems as if I go around
The circles of this life
Never is there to be found
Anything but strife

On my knees I cry and pray
That life is more than this
For tomorrow is another day
That I can search for bliss

Sinking

Thoughts of jewels, silver, gold
Have become a blur
Filled with visions of dirt, dust, mud
Change so quickly to occur

Sinking deep in the vast valley
Of I all I want not be
Kneeling in the quicksand
Feeling abandoned by me

Once I was a person
Someone I understood
Now I know not what I am
Vexing thoughts' intent no good

Drops of red, crimson deep
Filling up my brain
Prayers being lifted on my behalf
Calling for me to be sane

If God's plan is insanity
Then help me to accept
That what this is, is good somehow
My purpose not inept

Make Me Whole

You sent us Your Word so we would know the way
Yet I find it hard to make it part of my day
So, when I am alone and feeling lost
No one is to blame, it is by my own fault

I come to you now, asking for might
To overcome temptation and the devil's fight
I call to my Lord, the one on high
To lift up my Spirit and hear my cry

For I know that I must acknowledge my action
And accept that my relationship with You is a fraction
Of what it should be because of my sloth
So, make me whole, at whatever the cost

I want to be Yours, I want to be all
All that you called us to be before the Fall
Turn my heart from cold to warm
Let people look at me and see Jesus' form