Another song by Tenth Avenue North...

Times

I know i need you
I need to love you
I love to see you, and its been so long
i long to feel you
i feel this need for you'
and i need to hear you
is that so wrong?
oh oh oh, oh oh oh, oh oh oh
now you pulled me near you
when we're close i fear you
still I'm afraid to tell you
all that I've done
are you done forgiving?
or can you look past my pretending?
Lord I'm so tired of defending
what I've become
what have i become?
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh.
i hear you say "my love is over,
its underneath, its inside, its in between
the times you doubt me, when you can't feel
the times that you've questioned 'is this for real?'
the times you've broken, the times that you mend
the times you hate me and the times that you bend
well my love is over, its underneath
its inside, its in between,
these times you're healing
and when your heart breaks
the times that you feel like you've fallen from grace
the times you're hurting
the times that you heal
the times you go hungry and are tempted to steal
in times of confusion and chaos and pain
I'm there in your sorrow under the weight of your shame
I'm there through your heartache
I'm there in the storm
my love i will keep you by my power alone
i don't care where you've fallen, where you have been
I'll never forsake you
my love never ends, it never ends
mmm, mmm
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh

Predicament

I stand here today with failures all around
I see nothing for myself, but worthless bound
I'm trying to look past the selfish me
What the Lord originally made, I try to see

But,the new me that I have designed
Shows what I truly am, with loss of mind
A failure, a fool, a wretched soul
That no longer has, in this life, a role

For I used to be able to concentrate
I could help my children and on them wait
I could do school work and kiss boo boos
I could lift them up when they were blue

Yet, here I stand on this day
With a crowded mind and no good way
To be triumphant at life's events
Lord, save me from my predicament

Tenth Avenue North: By Your Side...song lyrics

By Your Side Lyrics

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

Bondage

As I lie in the bondage of a disordered mood
I wonder the reasoning, and sit and brood
For the world seems unfair, and angry I feel
That my thoughts and my feelings are sometimes unreal

I never do know who I'll be day to day
Will I be sad, anxious or gay
I do not understand from where my thoughts come
The ones that bombard, causing me to be done

Done with this life that I thought I knew
But, now is a life that is nothing but blue
Done with my feelings for they're all a lie
I never do know if I'll laugh, sing or cry

Function

An anxious view of life
Is causing mostly strife
When abandoned I am feeling
My soul will begin appealing

To the Father I believe
The one who can relieve
All the worries and the fear
Causing sickness and the tears

Heavenly Father, I call now
For you to show me how
How to let it all just be
So, I can function properly

Mind's Request

Lord won’t you please take me out of this hell
Heal my body, my soul, my mind make well
I can no longer battle this ongoing fight
I’ve abandoned my duties, given my children a fright

I want to be whole again, learning to live
For worship, service, love I long to give
Yet, here I am alone, sitting in the fire
With such strong emotions, release I desire

I feel terribly ashamed, afraid and confused
I call to You, for all my strength I have used
Yet no where do I hear the sound of Your voice
I used to believe that was all my choice

But, now I do wonder why You’ve been gone so long
As I carry a tune to the “Lord Hear Me” song
My heart, I thought, was free to hearing Your shout
My ears weary of waiting for You to call out

My mind is an absolute mess on its own
With You gone, my Lord, it’s truly alone
It’s up and it’s down, it’s empty and full
It’s frightened, confused, craving a tug and a pull

From its creator, its maker, the one who is You
It desires Your presence while it’s feeling so blue
But, again, Lord it calls with a response none
And it continues to cry, scream, shout and have fun

The crying is sad, the fun it is scary
It longs for some time with you to tarry
Rest together so it can calm and be healed
Lord, please return, is my mind’s strong appeal

Struggle

My God, My Lord why are You gone
At a time when i need you most
My mind is a mess, my heart torn
Oh Heavenly Father, Son and Ghost

My mind is irritable, crowded, all mixed up
In a body that's exhausted, worn out
As I drink from this bitter, disgusting cup
Please take it far away from my mouth

I disappoint those that must live with me
Those that have no other choice
But, to miserable, misguided, terrible see
A me that no longer has a voice

A voice to scream and holler to You, Lord
A voice that is strong, in control
A faith that is stronger than the sword
That is coming to chop at my soul

Just a blob of a self that is outside in
A pitiful wreck of a soul
Someone to many that used to be kin
Now seen as nothing but one with no goal

Struggling all day to get out of bed
To be a person that's worth this life
Struggling all day to get out of my head
To be a person not worthy of strife

Lord, I use all the strength that recently lapsed
The mustard seed sized faith that I own
To call once again, with belief that perhaps
You can save me from pain that has grown